About Caecus
[kai-ih-cuhs]
Here, I go by Caecus (she/her). I started this as an 18-year-old senior. I created this site in November 2021 as a portfolio for my creations, a generator of ideas, an experiment in expression, and an acceptance of imperfection. After some traumatic events from Spring 2021, I leaned into art. More info about the mural here. After a diagnosis of ADHD, I started spiraling and psychoanalyzing myself. While feeling extreme boredom in my classes, I started my "Beautiful Trash Journal" aka "The Imperfect Journal". While drawing, I looked for an escape, but I still criticized myself. It was not soothing my brain. I started to realize that, it was still art. It showed my emotion, it just wasn't my definition of perfect. Perfection is a killer, I know this. I spend a lot of time drawing and have an urgent itch to show what I make. Sometimes they are sufficient, sometimes I needed to add a poem or an analysis of it. Sometimes I tried to remake it digitally. Sometimes, I hate it. But, regardless, they are all accepted here. I must remind myself, everything is in process. These drawing will be seen in Unwritten, late 2022. After a couple of months of uploading and creating, I didn't have enough space digitally to hold all my work, I also had three hours a day to freely write. This led me to organizing a manuscript, now published and titled "She Loves Control". Explore with me on this journey, a journey of creative writing, visual arts, and self-acceptance.
The Origin
Caecus- "blind"
My name (Cecilia) comes from the name Cecil, which originated from "Caecus". While is difficult to spell and pronounce [kai-ih-cuhs] nothing else fits right.
The Real Me
While I have this platform to express my creativity and art, I am in college for Exercise Science and Athletic Training. I find I have enough space in my life to focus on Chalk BYC and the health fields. My goal with these degrees will be do find my niche and specialize in eating disorders, body dysmorphia, and realist lifestyle expectations.
